Saints Who Struggled With Doubt

Updated on December 9, 2018
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Bede is an artist with a long time interest in the lives of the saints.

When I contemplate the saints in heaven, I see them as bathed in the joyous light of God. No cares, no sorrows, no agitation; only wave upon wave of happiness cascading into their souls. Forever happy and safe, they can only lift their hearts in praise. Some saints experienced a portion of this light all along life’s journey; others, no less holy, traveled along a dark path. The following saints experienced times of darkness. Having reached the Land of Light, they now can help us.


1. Saint Jane Frances de Chantal (1572-1641)

St. Jane Frances de Chantal was happily married to Baron Christophe de Chantal. They brought seven children into the world, four of whom survived to adulthood. Unfortunately, their marital bliss ended abruptly with Christophe’s accidental death while hunting. For Jane, this triggered a lifelong struggle with doubt: “On the one hand, I am caught between the excruciating pain, and on the other hand, my love for our holy Faith that is so deep, that I would rather die than deny the least article of it.” Did she perhaps question why God would allow this to happen?


In any case, she chose steadfastly to trust in God, despite the darkness. She begged Him for a guide to help navigate her way. When St. Francis de Sales came to preach a Lenten retreat at her parish, she recognized him as the director she saw in a dream. She asked him to be her spiritual director, albeit with no small challenge. He accepted and in time, Jane expressed her desire to become a Carmelite nun. Francis suggested that she might start her own her religious congregation.

Consequently, she founded the Congregation of the Visitation with the help of Francis. When she died, there were 87 monasteries and tremendous growth after her death. Her journey was not on a radiant path, however: “Most often, there is a confused sort of strife in my soul, between feelings of being plunged into an impenetrable darkness that I am powerless to do anything about; I have a kind of spiritual nausea that tempts me to give up trying.” She didn’t give up, however, but strove even more to cling to God.

This painting depicts St.Francis de Sales on the left and St. Jane Frances on the right. Together they founded the Order of the Visitation.
This painting depicts St.Francis de Sales on the left and St. Jane Frances on the right. Together they founded the Order of the Visitation. | Source

Her Response to Doubt

Why God allows certain souls to walk a dark path remains a mystery. Jane was a holy woman, so it was obviously not her own fault. She endured her struggles principally by three means; first, she opened her soul to St. Francis de Sales. Spiritual direction is very important for all persons who are seeking enlightenment. She did not trust her own judgment as being perfect and therefore gave herself to trust in his advice. Revealing one’s struggles to a trusted guide is most beneficial to remain in peace.

Secondly, she exercised trust in God, though she felt nothing: “I’ve had these temptations for forty-one years now; do you think I’m going to give up after all this time? Absolutely not. I’ll never stop hoping in God.” Thirdly, she practiced patience and constancy to a heroic degree and thereby completed the journey in peace.

2. Saint Paul of the Cross (1694-1775)

St Paul of the Cross gives a remarkable example of perseverance through darkness. This wonderful Italian saint of the 18th century founded the Passionists, a congregation whose principal devotion is the Passion of Christ. The notable aspect of Paul’s experience of darkness is that it not only lasted forty-five grueling years, but twelve years of intense spiritual joy preceded it and five years of consolation followed it. He understood his trial in terms of sharing in the Passion of Christ, especially the aspect of feeling abandoned by God. He likewise grasped that his sufferings were obtaining grace for those who were in need of spiritual help.


Nonetheless, he did not despair nor allow himself to be mired in discouragement during his trek through the dark forest. His faith kept him going, knowing that a pasture of unearthly joy lay just beyond the shadowy woods. Eventually, his trial passed into a five year period of heavenly sweetness. He received visions of the Virgin Mary, St. Michael, and the Christ Child. He often experienced a spiritual transport known as an ecstasy, by which his senses were suspended and he became entirely absorbed in God. St Paul’s example shows the value of patient endurance and calm trust in God during the trial of darkness; in addition, he illustrates the joyful reward for perseverance.

3. Saint Thérèse of Lisieux (1873-1897)

St. Thérèse is quite a charming French saint. Pope Pius X proclaimed her “greatest saint of modern times.” She earned this accolade not so much through her charm, but through her virtuous life and wisdom. Her teachings, found principally in her autobiography, The Story of a Soul, explain her doctrine known as the Little Way. A brief description in her own words is, “The abandonment and the love of a child who knows that his Father loves him.”

However, this childlike confidence came to perfection in a crucible of suffering. In the last eighteen months of her life, as she was dying of tuberculosis, she passed through a “trial of faith,” as she termed it. “He (God) allowed my soul to be enveloped in utter darkness,” she said, “and the thought of Heaven, which had consoled me from my earliest childhood, now became a subject of conflict and torture.” In her youth, she thought atheists were not being truthful, but now she had an intimate experience of their thoughts.

St. Thérèse's Example and Advice

She did not stand by idly under the deluge of these thoughts. She went to work. “I try to practice my faith, even though it brings me no joy. I have made more acts of faith in the last year than during all the rest of my life.” By day and by night she clung to the truths of the faith, even to writing out the Creed with her own blood. ”Oh, if you knew what horrible thoughts constantly oppress me,” she said. Her method consisted of never debating with the thoughts. “Whenever I find myself faced with the prospect of an attack by my enemy, I am most courageous; I turn my back on him, without so much as looking at him, and run to Jesus.”

The Meaning of Her Trial

Was God punishing her? Was He purifying her soul? Her own intuition on the matter was that she was atoning for those who had lost the faith. She gave a comparison of sitting at a table with the worst atheists and their bitter food, and yet clinging to God and interceding for those who denied Him.

Ultimately, having passed through this experience with doubt, she can now help those who still walk in the shadows. “I believe that the blessed in heaven have great compassion for our wretchedness,” she said, “They remember that when they were frail and mortal like us, they committed the same faults, endured the same struggles, and their love for us becomes greater even than it was on earth. This is why they do not stop protecting us and praying for us.”


4. Saint Teresa of Calcutta (1910-1997)

When the time came for Sister Agnes Gonxha to profess religious vows as a Loreto Sister, she desired the name of Thérèse. She felt a strong bond with the century French nun and wanted to have her as a patron. However, another nun had already taken that name, so she opted for the Spanish equivalent, Teresa. Mother Teresa has many things in common with her patron, not least being a battle with doubt.

The “Call within a Call”

On September 10, 1946, Mother Teresa was on a train ride from Calcutta to Darjeeling, for a much-needed retreat as a Loreto Sister. On the way, she had a mystical encounter with Jesus, who asked her to go the “holes of the poor,” to bring them relief. She was happy teaching as a Loreto Sister, but she obeyed what she termed a “call within a call.”

For the next several months, her spiritual life overflowed with consolations. Then the darkness descended. When the change came, she at first thought it was her fault. In the years that followed, she came to understand that it was a sharing in Jesus’ own thirst on the cross. In letters to her spiritual directors, she revealed an aching thirst for God, which mirrored Jesus’ own thirst for souls. Painful though it was, she accepted her trial of faith as being a way to emulate Jesus on the Cross: “My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?” (Ps. 22:1, Mt.27:46)

If I ever become a saint, I will surely be one of "darkness." I will continually be absent from Heaven - to light the light of those in darkness on earth.

— Saint Teresa of Calcutta

St Teresa’s Example

St Teresa shows that the suffering caused by doubt is not meaningless, nor is it necessarily our fault. It has value in God’s eyes when offered to Him with love. She accepted it as a way to imitate Jesus on the cross, and thereby to help souls to Heaven. In Catholic theology, this is known as "co-redeeming.” Jesus is the sole Redeemer, but He allows members of His mystical body (the Church), to share in His work. (see Col 1:24) Moreover, His grace can be at work in the soul, as manifest in Saint Teresa, and yet not be felt. Faith is not a matter of feelings, but a decision of the will.

Upward and Onward!


If you walk a dark path in this life, be not discouraged. Those who have successfully completed the passage know the way through it. What is their advice in sum? From St. Jane, we learn the importance of a spiritual guide and the virtue of trust. St. Paul’s example teaches us the value of patience and hope and the rewards that follow darkness. From St. Therese, we learn the necessity of exercising soul muscle (faith) and ignoring the enemy. Finally, from St. Teresa we understand that the suffering caused by doubt has value in God’s eyes, when offered to Him with love. By their example, advice and most especially by their heavenly intercession, the saints can help the doubtful to go upward and onward to the Land of Light.


The Story of a Soul: The Autobiography of St. Thérèse of Lisieux

ICS Publications, 2005

The Hidden Face: A study of St. Thérèse of Lisieux,

by Ida Friedericke Görres, Pantheon, 1959

Mother Teresa: Come be my Light, edited and with commentary by

Brian Kolodiejchuck, M.C., Doubleday, 2007

The Story of a Soul is available in pdf format here.

…or as a free audio book.

St. John Paul II explains what co-redemption means in an apostolic letter called Salvifici Doloris.

An article about St. Jane Frances de Chantal.

Butler's Lives of the Saints, Concise Version, edited by Michael Walsh; Harper & Row Publishers, 1985; pages 414-416

© 2018 Bede


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  • Bede le Venerable profile imageAUTHOR


    15 months ago from Minnesota

    Thanks Larry, I’m glad you enjoyed the article and appreciate the feedback.

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    Larry Slawson 

    15 months ago from North Carolina

    Thank you for sharing! Really enjoyed this article a lot!

  • Bede le Venerable profile imageAUTHOR


    20 months ago from Minnesota

    Hi Ann, that’s a great line from St. Teresa. She reveals two virtues; faith in God’s providence that allows even the mishaps to occur, and secondly, a humble sense of humor. She most likely never rode a horse in her habit, though. From the book of her Foundations, there is frequent mention of her journeys in a carriage. It’s well worth reading if you haven’t checked it out. The Internet Archive has a free version.

    While it is true that some habits were in need of modification, I think the habits of a Carmelite nun or Missionary of Charity are superb. They are simple, well designed, and set them apart from everyday life. They speak silently that this person belongs to God and not to the “world.”

    I also am encouraged to know that the saints were close to God, yet some passed through a tunnel of sorts. Did they doubt? I believe they fought against but it was definitely an encounter doubt, such as St. Therese’s struggle regarding heaven.

  • Amble profile image


    20 months ago from Surrey United Kingdom

    This is really flippant I know but looking at the female saints who struggled with doubt one cannot help but give thanks that nuns don't have to wear these awful garbs anymore. Apologies!

    " A favourite story about St Teresa illustrates the intimate relationship that the saints have with God. When she was on one of her innumerable journeys across Spain, her horse threw her as she was crossing a river. Soaked to the skin she looked up to heaven and said, “If this is how you treat your friends, no wonder you have so few of them!”

    I wonder whether she had on appropriate garb for riding a horse.

  • Amble profile image


    20 months ago from Surrey United Kingdom

    Let There Be Light

    From the point

    From which all life flows

    It flows to me.

    My part is to accept this life


    As a manifestation of God on earth.

    It is I

    Who brings light and love

    Into this existence.

    No angelic being can do it for me.

    Yes, heartily do I accept

    This responsibility!

    The God in me.

    From “ The Essene Book of Meditations and blessings”

    It is hugely encouraging that Mother Teresa; all the other Saints you mention and many others struggled with darkness ( not really doubt?)

    A remarkable book I read is " Light From A Dark Valley" by Sheila Cassidy. Also " Sharing the Darkness" (Sheila Cassidy, Medical Director of a small hospice, tells her own story; including imprisonment and torture in Chile, and how this developed her as a human being, giving her increased compassion for others)

    Thank-you for raising this subject and giving us some pointers Bede

  • Bede le Venerable profile imageAUTHOR


    24 months ago from Minnesota

    Welcome to HubPages, Eduardo, where there is a great variety of articles. I hope you find more articles to your liking. Perhaps you could write an article on some aspect of life in Rio…I will read it!

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    Eduardo Alvares 

    24 months ago

    I am a newcomer, from Rio de Janeiro, Brazil.

    I just want to thank you for this wonderful site,

    Thank you

  • Bede le Venerable profile imageAUTHOR


    2 years ago from Minnesota

    Thanks much for the encouragement Linda. I like researching and writing about the saints, even if the interest seems to be smaller. A small audience has benefits, though. After all, if I wrote more practical hubs, such as, “The 25 Household Uses for Peanut-Butter,” I would have to work far into the night responding to the comments.

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    Linda Crampton 

    2 years ago from British Columbia, Canada

    Your stories of saints are interesting, Bede. I enjoy reading them. Thanks for sharing the links to the documents. I've bookmarked them and will explore them when I have time.


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